About to change

Life as you know it is about to change.
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I heard those words as plain as day one year before my world fell apart. Little did I know just what that meant. I tried to ignore it. I tried to not acknowledge it but it was. How could that warning have helped me with if I had of acknowledged it. What difference could it of made. I don’t think any but it could have softened the blow of it all if I had of know how to react.
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What good is a warning with out knowledge of how to handle it.
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OMG I am so angry. I am so sad. I can’t handle me right now.
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What was I? Who was I? Why? Why? Why?
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I feel so rejected. I feel so lost. I feel so empty. I feel so ugly.
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I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t want this life anymore.
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Somehow it must stop. Somehow it must end. Somehow. . .
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I can’t . . .